Reality Check

One of my dear college friends, Ella, (who just got married!) mentioned this blog on facebook and I got sucked into reading it for a good half hour one weekend.  Her honesty and transparency was refreshing and at times down right hilarious.

Her husband wrote the following below and it really got me thinking about what "occasional sins" am I not repenting of?  What do I brush off like it's no big deal when in reality there is a much deeper reason living beneath that thought or action and I frankly just don't want to dig deep enough to figure out what that is.  Because it gets messy.  And it requires being vulnerable.   And I think too highly of myself to want to believe anything else.

I hope this quote gets you thinking... like it did me... about what "occasional sins" I need to take a good look at.

"Through this painful process of having everything taken away, I was able to understand that the Gospel is not just a hurdle in the beginning:  It’s everything.  The gospel is applicable to my life 24/7.  I am jacked up beyond what I can comprehend.  The only way I’m saved is through faith and hope in the Cross.  I realized that during the time I was a “super Christian,” the reality was, that behind closed doors, I actually was occasionally looking at porn, occasionally flirting with other women, occasionally drinking too much, occasionally not being honest with my wife, and occasionally doing a ton of other crap that I let no one know about. All of my “occasional sin” became a lifestyle of sin that held me captive. The sad thing is that I had all the resources to get help at my fingertips (friends, accountability, church), but was too prideful to tell the truth and let people see my sin. That was my main hindrance...what would everyone think of me if they knew who I really was?"